Stef’s video is so inspiring. I felt I had to post a comment, which is rare for me. I wrote:
Your video is very inspiring. I’m 45 and just coming to terms with the confusion that I’ve felt almost all my life. Up until last year, I thought I was broken or some kind of degenerate. I’m just starting to accept that my feelings aren’t sick.
I really like what you said that we already are who we are inside. I’ve been hiding my true self for so long, it’s going to take a while to take down all the walls and lies she’s built to protect herself. I want to know who I really am, instead of this person I made up so I would fit in.
I feel like such a fraud. I feel like a fake. So I almost cried when you said that girls like me, who still have to present as male, are still girls. That we aren’t faking it. Having someone acknowledge my situation feels so overwhelming. It makes me feel hope and not so alone.
I also wanted to add here, because hardly anyone visits my blog, is that I love the movie Mulan and the song Reflection. The lyrics (as you can see in my first ever post on this blog) speak so much of my truth about hiding the real me. I think I’ve made some good steps forward since then, but I’m still very much afraid of expressing my true self.
P.S. I guess part of me wants to stop hiding. So I’ll say here that I worked on that movie, just a little bit. But as you can see I’m still timid about revealing myself.