I can’t believe I’m updating this blog.
Still struggling with accepting myself for who I am. Still in therapy.
It’s funny to read my last post because I started growing my hair long about 8 weeks ago. It’s kind of a shaggy mess, but I can almost make a sad, small ponytail. I’m not sure how I feel about this. I have this lingering sense that I’m doing something that I shouldn’t.
Staying away from this blog and from Photoshop (my virtual version of dressing up) was kind of like purging, I guess.
I feel like I want to share and explore my experience here. At the same time, I’m also really afraid. So I’m kind of forcing myself to do this again. I hope that I can “fake it till I make it” and this will eventually not feel like I’m being torn apart every time I want to post.