My dad went into the hospital because he had a stroke. He passed away a few weeks ago.
I’ve been helping my mom deal with everything. It’s been a full time job. I guess it’s a mixed blessing that I still don’t have a steady job and able to help her for so long.
But now I’m tired. And I’m sad. I’ve been so busy I haven’t had time process anything emotionally.
It’s also been incredibly hard to spend so much time with my sibling, my mom, and my extended family. While it’s been good in many way, the emotional stress has made it very hard to keep my truth to myself. Having no alone time also means I couldn’t really express my femme self, so the pressure built up a lot.
It was also pretty clear that my family is not very tolerant. Which makes me a bit sad and more determined not to let them know about my gender dysphoria.