(Oct. 2014 update: As you’ve probably seen already, these days I’m trying out the name Cassandra, or Cassie for short.)
I’ve been using Dawn for a while now, but it’s never felt quite right.
I started looking for a new name for my inner girl. Still haven’t found one that fits.
It’s contributing to my depression lately. I feel like I’m letting her down. Especially now that I’m letting going my dreams of transitioning for real. Knowing that she’s never going to exist. Maybe that’s also what is making it so hard. Giving her a real name will make her more of a real person. At the same time, it will make losing her even more difficult.